DO NOT PANIC

“I realized that the deepest spiritual lessons are not learned by His letting us have our way in the end, but by His making us wait, bearing with us in love and patience until we are able to honestly to pray what He taught His disciples to pray: Thy will be done.”
― Elisabeth Elliot, Passion and Purity

And now it is evening. I am impeccably bored.

I just might drive tomorrow. I just might. I have some thinking to do.  Its truly dark here . I could turn a light on but don’t feel like it.

I went to the eye specialist in Toormina. With Kate and her Girls. We had Subway – I have never done that before. We shopped in Aldi and the Little One was perfect.

And now I am home. In Limbo Land.

WAITING – such a hard thing to do. WAITING for an indicator of the next good move.

I wonder whether there are any good quotes for WAITING. I am at a Crossroads.

This one is not about WAITING. But it applies to me now.

“Conquer the angry one by not getting angry; conquer the wicked by goodness; conquer the stingy by generosity, and the liar by speaking the truth.

[Verse 223]”
― Gautama Buddha, The Dhammapada

“It’s hard being left behind. (…) It’s hard to be the one who stays.”
― Audrey Niffenegger, The Time Traveler’s Wife

“If I die, I will wait for you, do you understand? No matter how long. I will watch from beyond to make sure you live every year you have to its fullest, and then we’ll have so much to talk about when I see you again… (Bones)”
― Jeaniene Frost

Yes – these are all little RIPPERS.

“I’ve learned that waiting is the most difficult bit, and I want to get used to the feeling, knowing that you’re with me, even when you’re not by my side.”
― Paulo Coelho, Eleven Minutes

“Patience is power.
Patience is not an absence of action;
rather it is “timing”
it waits on the right time to act,
for the right principles
and in the right way.”
― Fulton J. Sheen

AND THIS IS THE ONE FOR ME NOW

“Waiting hurts. Forgetting hurts. But not knowing which decision to take can sometimes be the most painful…”
― José N. Harris, MI VIDA: A Story of Faith, Hope and Love

So I sit here. I didn’t know know much to give the Iz Girls. I am still a little stunned that they kept going for so much after getting all the Music Gear, all his belongings and then after I gave them the Kombi – they went for more. Fecked if I am going to get sick from it this time.

Now I don’t know whether to stay here – which I cannot do indefinitely due to money. I don’t know whether to go into a Hostel – though I think not. I don’t know what to do.

I don’t know how to clean up although I have the Number of a Girl Friday.

“The wait is long, my dream of you does not end.”
― Nuala O’Faolain, My Dream of You

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