Category Archives: AFTER THE DREAMING

ACUPUNCTURE DAY

Today is acupuncture. And Drainage for the lymph system. I have already been down to the lagoon and the tide is high on this grey day. I would like to do the Meeting in Urunga but Gina is here one more day so I shall go to her and for acupuncture. Since the cramps have stopped and I generally feel far better, i shall do the thing that is working.

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I met Kate and Clarz for a wee bit. They were going home to dye a T shirt orange for Saf’s Harmony Day at school. Then I went on to the CWA rooms for treatment. Today was Gina’s last day there and so i had a full lymphatic massage. $30. Very good indeed. I feel well when I am in there even knowing the liver is swollen and unwell. I like the atmosphere of a lot of us helping one another. I am home now and have had a swim in the Lido. The Shack has been inspected and all is truly well.

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WAIT ONE MORE DAY

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SO – having decided by the end of the day that my nerves couldn’t stand waiting around to die from Hep C, I was formulating my exit plan. I thought it would be rather nice to score one last massive load of dope and take myself out onto the lagoon in a canoe and simply go to sleep forever out there. First, I thought I would do some shopping and a meeting.

So at the meeting, I cheered right up, celebrated Julie’s 15th birthday and then G from Sawtell shared with me that he had been waiting for 2 months to get into the Hep C clinic and when he finally got to speak with someone they told him that the reason he hadn’t been put down for further tests was that he was still pretty damn fine. So maybe that’s the same reason they haven’t rushed me in.

So I am glad I didn’t sail off into the sunset because maybe the end is not nigh and then I would miss out  on all kinds of goodies in Life.

SUCH A LOVELY DAY

KT cleaned my house today and it looks and smells good. We ate lasagne cooked by IMM for lunch and Clarz and me played in the Caravan. Everything looks good here.

The weather is beautiful and I( am calm but PF’s Hep c has now grown a tumour. And Fear returns to me as well as confusion. I don’t know what to do about the Hep. I shall do some more meditating upon this matter.

At times it eats me alive and the Fear shatters me.

One blessing this week is the cessation of the cramping. When I move, it no longer feels as if my muscles are paper and will tear. I can bend and stretch and not be crippled by pain.

AND THEN I WENT TO A MEETING – and everything is changed for another day.ALL IS WELL. ALL IS WELL. 

GINA AND PAUL

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Well. There you go. Today PN and Gina came and brought a portable massage table. A second lymphatic drainage and her wonderful healing hands. I am so getting looked after. AH for the yard. This cottage. A girl is going to detail my car tomorrow. PNs daughter. No denying the care and protection.

HEALING : acupuncture, lymphatic massage, swimming in salt water, sleep and fresh fish and SNEZ MUSICA

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This morning  I went to Paul the Acupuncturist in his clinic at the CWS rooms in Bellingen. He had a young german Physio visiting and she gave me a lymphatic  massage which felt exceptionally good. She knew exactly what she was doing and I could feel the effects of her touch.

Then Paul put in needles for acupuncture. I liked the atmosphere. 5 or 6 people at shiatsu and acupuncture. The room is beautiful and looks over the river. I accepted the Chinese Herbs he has made up for me although I fear them somewhat. I do not fear them as much as the western medicine. Which is doing nothing anyways. Nothing that helps me.

I AM BEGINNING TO LAND – just a little. Still the pain comes but I begin to reappear from the wastelands of grief and suffering.

When I came back to Urunga I took a drive to the Lido and Nola was there and I went for a swim with her. The water was very clear and there was little wind. And the fishes swam all round me. Whiting – swimming all round my legs. Marvellous.

I was listening to the music of Snez and  Stewie.  

Song DescriptionA love song capturing a moment in time, with descriptions of lovely moments that happen in a loving relationship.

Story Behind the SongSitting watching the fire and very content with my life.

Lyrics

NEVER GROW OLD (PETER PAN)
Snez/Stewart Peters © 2009

Verse 1
The fires gone out
The nights still young
Oh baby I adore you
Lets dance till dawn
We’ll see the sunrise in the morning
ooh ooh

Chorus
You’re my peter pan
lets never grow old
Don’t want my feet to land
lets never grow old
lets never grow old

Verse 2
Sing you to sleep
Just like a child
Love you even when your snoring
I’ll kiss your scars
And spend the night in silent talking
ooh ooh

Chorus
You’re my peter pan
lets never grow old
Don’t want my feet to land
lets never grow old
lets never grow old

M8
I hear you breathe in and out my ear
I watch u sleep and I’m glad your here

Chorus
You’re my peter pan
lets never grow old
Don’t want my feet to land
lets never grow old
lets never grow old

Chorus
You’re my peter pan
lets never grow old
Don’t want my feet to land
lets never grow old
lets never grow old….
Lets never grow old
Lets never grow old….

The fires gone out
The nights still young
Oh baby I adore you

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snez iz stew

  • ____________________________
    AND THIS IS WHAT I SAY. 
    I listen to people say they can’t sleep with their partner’s snoring . I was like Snez with my Iz – ” I even love your snoring”.
  •   i reckon if some of the young couples I know put more effort into being lovers than into work and good causes – the world would be a more loving place. Loving is a work of art.
    iz and me

A DAY IN THE SUN

LIDO SHADOWDid the Meeting – and as usual it helped and a whole gang of them were going to A’s place to restore it to order. It is a legacy of his using , his raising of kids and early recovery and the whole pack of them were heading up to clean it for him. What a marvellous thing. I feel better for the meeting even though there isn’t anything particular I recall about it. That’s how they work. Healing of the Broken Spirits. You can’t explain it to anyone that it doesn’t work for, A healer of mine asked about it last week. I didn’t even try to argue or explain. It just works. Might make it my mission for the week. Meetings. Never led me astray before.

Now I am going to start a new blog for the 2 wanderers in Queensland.

I went for a swim this afternoon and the impact of the loss of Iz hit again as I sat on the bench. Life was so much easier with him in my world. We would have sat a while. Then I could have asked him for anything. And because I could ask him for anything, I didn’t.  But we would have shopped and gone for a drive and gone home together. Now its all gone. LIDO