Category Archives: LIVING CLEAN

THE SILVER BIRD

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HAVING USED MY QUOTA OF FREE SPACE ON THE SILVERBIRD, I HAVE BEEN COMPELLED TO MOVE ON TO PART 2. FOLLOW THE LINKS ABOVE FOR POSTS FROM 21 MARCH ONWARDS. COME FLY WITH ME, MES AMIS.

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STILL HOT

Living in a world entirely altered remains somewhat mechanical with conscious rehabilitatve replacement of activities. Today The tide was very high and the canoes and kayaks were out on the water. In the afternoon, I went to Saffy’s swimming lesson and watched the changing in her and Clarz. I am kind of alright encased in Urunga and now and then I am able to expand into Bellingen. Anywhere else overwhelms me. That’s OK. I know how to do this.Gently gently. I am moving through the days with more gentleness and calmness. My legs are almost fluid free today and although I have the ache in the region of the liver, the rest of me is OK and I still haven’t had the cramping.

One thing I saw today which warmed my heart was – my little one realised that all the other kids could swim but her and she was watching them and then a wee little lass took her hand and said “come on, I will teach you how. “

Such a lovely day it was.

SUNDAY AT HOME

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ANOTHER Sunday. I am lonely. I identify that from years of it. Not lonely for people. Lonely for person. Lonely for someone to go for a drive with or eat dinner with or sleep with. The Kids didn’t come to visit today and that left another hole and means I don’t see Saf for a couple of weeks. I have things to work out but I am not yet ready to do so.

“at the heart of every frustration lies a basic structure: the collision of a wish with an unyielding reality.”
― Alain de Botton, The Consolations of Philosophy

HEALING : acupuncture, lymphatic massage, swimming in salt water, sleep and fresh fish and SNEZ MUSICA

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This morning  I went to Paul the Acupuncturist in his clinic at the CWS rooms in Bellingen. He had a young german Physio visiting and she gave me a lymphatic  massage which felt exceptionally good. She knew exactly what she was doing and I could feel the effects of her touch.

Then Paul put in needles for acupuncture. I liked the atmosphere. 5 or 6 people at shiatsu and acupuncture. The room is beautiful and looks over the river. I accepted the Chinese Herbs he has made up for me although I fear them somewhat. I do not fear them as much as the western medicine. Which is doing nothing anyways. Nothing that helps me.

I AM BEGINNING TO LAND – just a little. Still the pain comes but I begin to reappear from the wastelands of grief and suffering.

When I came back to Urunga I took a drive to the Lido and Nola was there and I went for a swim with her. The water was very clear and there was little wind. And the fishes swam all round me. Whiting – swimming all round my legs. Marvellous.

I was listening to the music of Snez and  Stewie.  

Song DescriptionA love song capturing a moment in time, with descriptions of lovely moments that happen in a loving relationship.

Story Behind the SongSitting watching the fire and very content with my life.

Lyrics

NEVER GROW OLD (PETER PAN)
Snez/Stewart Peters © 2009

Verse 1
The fires gone out
The nights still young
Oh baby I adore you
Lets dance till dawn
We’ll see the sunrise in the morning
ooh ooh

Chorus
You’re my peter pan
lets never grow old
Don’t want my feet to land
lets never grow old
lets never grow old

Verse 2
Sing you to sleep
Just like a child
Love you even when your snoring
I’ll kiss your scars
And spend the night in silent talking
ooh ooh

Chorus
You’re my peter pan
lets never grow old
Don’t want my feet to land
lets never grow old
lets never grow old

M8
I hear you breathe in and out my ear
I watch u sleep and I’m glad your here

Chorus
You’re my peter pan
lets never grow old
Don’t want my feet to land
lets never grow old
lets never grow old

Chorus
You’re my peter pan
lets never grow old
Don’t want my feet to land
lets never grow old
lets never grow old….
Lets never grow old
Lets never grow old….

The fires gone out
The nights still young
Oh baby I adore you

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snez iz stew

  • ____________________________
    AND THIS IS WHAT I SAY. 
    I listen to people say they can’t sleep with their partner’s snoring . I was like Snez with my Iz – ” I even love your snoring”.
  •   i reckon if some of the young couples I know put more effort into being lovers than into work and good causes – the world would be a more loving place. Loving is a work of art.
    iz and me

UP FOR THE SUNRISE

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That turned into a good day. I got up before the sunrise which I don’t normally do. Then my Girl came and organised my foods and freezer and fridge and I could cry because i have been finding it too hard. Just too hard and there they were, her and her little girl carrying me through the almost unbearable days. I also did my meeting and went for Chinese with Double J. I am well tonight. And it feels good.

A DAY IN THE SUN

LIDO SHADOWDid the Meeting – and as usual it helped and a whole gang of them were going to A’s place to restore it to order. It is a legacy of his using , his raising of kids and early recovery and the whole pack of them were heading up to clean it for him. What a marvellous thing. I feel better for the meeting even though there isn’t anything particular I recall about it. That’s how they work. Healing of the Broken Spirits. You can’t explain it to anyone that it doesn’t work for, A healer of mine asked about it last week. I didn’t even try to argue or explain. It just works. Might make it my mission for the week. Meetings. Never led me astray before.

Now I am going to start a new blog for the 2 wanderers in Queensland.

I went for a swim this afternoon and the impact of the loss of Iz hit again as I sat on the bench. Life was so much easier with him in my world. We would have sat a while. Then I could have asked him for anything. And because I could ask him for anything, I didn’t.  But we would have shopped and gone for a drive and gone home together. Now its all gone. LIDO