Category Archives: THE COMA


So – This is what was wrong with me. No wonder I felt poorly. And I shall put Izzy’s report up as well. I saw my doc today and we are continuing to formulate a care plan.  These are the heavy aspects of this time – but I am someone who does better with THE FACTS and the details. Geez iz – what has happened to us and our lives ?





The Trigger of Comas: Derry Bresee’s Near-Death Experience

By Kevin Williams

A coma is a deep state of unconsciousness during which an individual is not able to react to their environment. Someone in a coma cannot respond to any form of stimulation whatsoever. Coma can be caused by an underlying illness, or it can result from head trauma. A comatose person is still very much alive, but he or she is not simply asleep. The brain wave activity in a comatose person is very different from that of a sleeping person; you can wake up a sleeping person, you can’t wake a person in a coma. There are reports of people waking from a coma and recounting a classic near-death experience. Some reports involve the comatose patient being able to visualize and hear what is happening while in the comatose state. This web page includes two examples of NDEs occurring while the experiencer is in a coma. One is from a woman named Derry Bresee whose photo appears one the left. The other NDE comes from an article in prestigious medical journal The Lancet concerning the Dutch NDE study in 2001.

via The Trigger of Comas: Derry Bresee’s Near-Death Experience.

via The Trigger of Comas: Derry Bresee’s Near-Death Experience.

Sepsis – Survivor Stories of Sepsis

Are you a sepsis survivor or has a loved one been diagnosed with sepsis? Many people have never heard of sepsis before they–or someone they care about–are very sick and left with more questions than answers.

via Sepsis – Survivor Stories of Sepsis.

via Sepsis – Survivor Stories of Sepsis.

I am a survivor

I has sepsis 1 year ago in October of 2012. I thought I had a cold and went home to lay down and felt worse later. My husband kept telling me to go to the hospital and I didn’t want to go. Finally I listened and he took me in. I remember walking into the er and not being able to breath and after that there is not much I remember. I do remember a lot of strange dreams. I was intubated for approx 14 days and remained in the hospital an additional week. I was transfered to a rehab due to my muscle atrophy upon waking up. It was a lot to take in when I woke up since everything in my mind was so jumbled but I survived. I am trying my best to live healthier taking steps to enjoy life my outlook on life has totally changed.



I think I am rather odd after the Coma. Combine it with Izzy’s death and very few meetings as well as a large quantity of drugs and here I am. SCHMOZZLED.

I have time now to do some thinking and some reading and researching. I have time now to consider the impact of this year. I rather think it is greater than I am yet aware of. Mostly I am sitting in the middle of nowhere land. Just sitting.

Face to face with Death.

Face to face with Life.

So far, I haven’t even be able to pick up the kit of simple spiritual tools. I don’t know whether I am going to live or die. I don’t know what damage has been done. I notice every slight alteration in my body. The pulse in my left temple. I wonder whether they have done my liver in or not.

I gather, from my reading, that I was very fortunate inasmuch as all my recollections of the Coma are wonderfully happy. The Dreaming I call it. Dancing with family and aboriginal art. I think my years of drug addiction might have prepared me for a Coma better than for some people. I have been in situations like that on narcotics many times and actually sought it.  Nonetheless – this was not a voluntary place I went to. And in addition I was critically ill.

I am not at all sure as to whether I am OK here on my own or not. Having my Son here saved my arse.  I went from the devoted care of ICU to the appalling conditions of medical wards. Then I was able to come home because he was here and willing and able to take care of everything. Then I have my Girl, my Advocate and Cake Baker coming in.

But me, I have not quite returned from the Dreaming. I am not as I was before. I am not as I was before Izzy died. I am not as I was before the Coma.

Therefore I cannot just go on as I did before. Thing is – I don’t know how to go on now.  No Drugs. No alcohol.  Get to a meeting on Wednesday.

Beyond that, I am enclosed within this one night. Watching an action movie which is unusual for me.  Allowing the Spirits to redefine me. I have eaten and drank liquids. I am finding myself totally unable to deal with business in any form or to successfully exchange with other people.  I need to simplify all my business to a bare minimum.

And stay with – the Changings. NO fractious people AT ALL.

Count blessings might be  a good place to start. Come on Lynne. You have been through similar things before. Remember in ICU when you began to waken and knew you had best reach up for that bar hanging above the bed – if ever you were going to move again.  Remember watching the water and saying to yourself – “one day I will have a drink of water. “

And remember the McKinnon Unit at Rozelle in 1987. Do not drink. Do not drug. Go to meetings. Make a gratitude list. And recall one small Dream.

You have been here before, Luce. Do it !

Gratitude – just 3 things Lynne.

1, I can move

2. I lived

3. I have mighty fine children and grandchildren and I had one very good man.

ONE SMALL DREAM – see Maddy again.

Sit with the memories. Study the effects of grief and coma. And for tonight – read the book Jim put on Kindle for you. Tuck into bed on the new mattress Iz bought for us. And – skid his Girls.


Do not enter the enemy camp.

Get your hair done and the massage and facial.

Thank God for being more or less intact,

And for these lovely Spring days with my Loved Ones around me. DSCF6026